The List
I graduated from college about a year and a half ago. I started my first job immediately after. I’m in a place in life where I’m looking for my next step–my next big dream. For most people the obvious next thing is to start some sort of masters program, get married, and then have lots of babies which is fine. But I feel like there should be more to life than that. I don’t want to just mark things off a list. I want to live the life I have well. Most of my attempts are bound to fail but, I can try can’t I? Something is bound to stick. So here’s the list.
1. Have a better relationship with God. I love Jesus. I read the bible and go to church. But I don’t always feel as sincere as I should or feel His presence in my life as much as I should. I wonder if I’m making decisions for myself or if I’m making decisions based on His will in my life. I want to be happy, and I know that I won’t be happy if I’m just seeking my own pleasures and my own gain.
2. Be more honest about what I want, and make it happen. I always talk about these great things that I want to do, but so rarely do they happen. I wanted to go to Chicago for my first big post graduation trip, but then it got postponed because of money, my new job started, and board exams. A year and a half has gone by and still there has yet to be a vacation. Theres always a reason to not do it. I need a reason to do it.
3. Become a better steward of the things in my life. I feel like I waste so much of my life, my time, and my money with nonsense. I’ve been talking about getting my OCN license for a year now, but haven’t taken any steps in that direction. I try to tithe as faithfully as I can. I give my 10% as its expected, but is that really enough? I’ve always wanted to donate my time as a nurse, but never knew where to start. I thought about medical missions and charity clinics. It all seems a bit scary. Uncharted territory always make me nervous.
4. Lead a healthier lifestyle. I am by no means obese or in need of any hospitalizations, but I could stand to make some life changes. I’d be pretty happy if I lost 5-10 pounds. I would also be okay if I gained weight and was just more toned. I just want more natural energy everyday. I want to take care of the body that God gave me because it is a temple of the Holy Spirit.
Now I reserve the right to add to this list, but since its written I’m not allowed to subtract from it. Remember I make lots of plans. Its the follow though that I have trouble with. Keep me in line world.
-In Between Dreams =)
